it has been forever and a day since i have updated so be prepared to read this one.

anywho i broke my computer some how so i am on my parents or the other one. i dont midn i like this one better except for the fact that i dont have music and music honestly is my life. so right now i am listening to some anniston and for those of you that dont know it is one of my best friends, for that matter, my best friend that is a males band. http://purevolume.com/anniston   check them out that would be great. they are truely amazing atleast i think so. i cant wait to go see them at battle of the bands saturday and if they dont win my heart will break for them haha. anyway no matter what any critics or judges say they will always be the best in my eyes. wow very touching moment there.

anyway i partied pretty hard last weekend although i dont do anything like drink or smoke. no offense to those of you that do, but that just isnt me and i dont see a point in it really. i kinda felt like an outcast being the only one at both parties pretty much that didnt do anything. oh well thats life and i rather stand up and be the bigger person and be able to say no thats stupid. anyway i had a good time at both parties with the exception of it being almost that time of month and me being very bitchy and veryyy emotional and sensitive over everything but hey thats me im a girl and if you dont like it then dont talk to me thats all i have to say. i met a lot of cool new people and had a lot of fun and i have to thank everyone for that. i pretended to take a hit of a cig. and eric left there for the night and went god only knows where. that kid breaks my heart everyday pretty much but here i am.. sticking around waiting for something or someone. i think that if i just keep holding on and holding on.. just maybe a few more months, weeks, days, whatever it will take.. everything will be perfect and how it should be. i know deep down it will never be like that though. i am honestly so in love with this kid and ive said it before. i really am. i love him with all of my heart no matter how much he breaks it. anyway saturday me and julie went to camelback but we didnt go skiing.. we really just werent in the mood so we sat in the lodge and ate and met tossssss of people. i found out that the night before eric hung out with some girls that he said didnt like me.. and it was funny considering i have no idea who this girl was and i went looking all over for her but no where to be found. eric got into a fight saturday night with soemoen from up here because they were callin my phone and startin shit. i must admit that was insane and it is wayyy too much to ever write up here and if you need to know or want to you can ask me if not im sure ive already told u the story.

ive started my new job and it is so cool. i love it. i actually look forward to going to work except for the fact that i have been soooo exhaused lately and i have no idea why. its so weird.

but anyway another thing ive been meaning to say is that people are really starting to piss me off. i dont understand why people just cant be themselves. why must they do and say and write everything that everyone else does? honestly. it really gets under my skin, probably more than almost anything. im sorry but i do not understand why people do almost everything replica to other people. yeah everyone lieks things that people do and come up with but that DOES NOT mean it is okay for them to mock them and not in a cocky way but its really annoying and gay and just please stop it. okthanks.

so i'm going to vermont a week from today and i'm SOOOOOO pumped up!!!! i cant wait. thurs-sun. its just gonna be me and julie but its gona be amazing. so many amazing people are going but it would be 100x better if josh was going. he is so much fun to be with and he makes everything better than it really is. gosh i will miss my eric and angel so terribly much. but guys, thats pretty much all i have to say for now. i'll post again when i feel like venting.

                                               THE BASICS..... 
                                   *.Full Name: Kayla                                                                

                                   *.Birthday: Febuary-19-1989
                                     *.Age: 16                                     

                                        *.Zodiac Sign: Picese or Aquarius.. im on the cusp or w/e haha

                                       *.Where you live: Pennsylvania 

                                               WHO.....
          *. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to?

                              -- my family, and some friends --

*.If you had to go live in borneo for the rest of your life and you could take one person on this earth,who would you take?

                                -- angel lee--

*.Who is the one person that you could stand spending a straight 24 hours with and not get the slightest bit annoyed with?

                              --angel lee takes it again haha but there are a lot of u dont get me wrong its just i know this already--

*.If you woke up one morning and noticed that your leg was missing who would be the first person you would call?

                                                --la madre--

*.Let's say your dad came in your room one day and told you that you had to get married in the next week but you can pick the person but you have to stay with them for the rest of your life no getting out of it, who would you pick?

                                                  --eric--

*. What if you woke up tomorrow and you were someone else completely, who would you be?

                                         --nobody i'm glad being me--

                                               WHAT......
*.What would be the first thing you would do if you woke up one morning and you were the opposite sex? 

--be like holy shit! call angel.. then cry cry cry--

*.If all of a sudden you had the ability to do one thing better than everyone else, have one amazing talent, what would it be?

                              --probably brains--

*.If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change(personality and looks)?

                    --not to be so rude at times or to judge people before i know them, looks- boobs, my eyes are too small--

                                      *.What is your dream career?

                                         --a very successful mortician--

                                      
                   *.What is the one thing you just have to do before you die?

                      --get married, be very successful, have children and a veryy loving family (ok maybe thats more than 1)--

*.If you could be a member of any band that has ever exsisted, what band would that be?

                                            -- god i dont even know haha --

                        *.What is the thing you care about most in your life?

                                           -- My Family And Friends And Clothes haha --

                                               WHICH ONE......
                                 *.winter or summer? summer
                                *.the beach or the mountains? the beach
                               *.pop or punk? punk
                              *.rock or rap? rock
                             *.new york or L.A.? New York
                            *.milk chocolate or dark chocolate? milk choclate
                           *.dogs or cats? dogs
                          *.britney or christina? christina

                         *.leno or letterman? none

                        *.mtv or vh1?  mtv
                       *.country or classical? classical

                      *.day or night? night
                     *.lake or ocean? ocean
                    *.waffles or pancakes? french toast haha
                   *.soccer or football? football
                  *.baseball or swimming? baseball
                 *.chocolate or vanilla? choclate
                *.sugar or spice? sugar
                                               RANDOM....
       *.If you could be in any movie as the lead role what movie would it be? 
                                  --legally blonde/cruel intentions--

   *.If you could design your perfect mate what would he/she look like and be like?

-- built..veryyyy built, abercrombie/hollister model type haha, hair/eyes all the junk doesnt phase me as long as they look good haha, tan, NOT stuck on themselves, doesnt lie and tells EXACTLY what they are feeling--

i never have a subject anymore. i have decided that subjects suck terribly. i never know what to put for them, they kinda like ruin the whole entry because they give it all away? so i probably wont be using a subject anymore.

anyway see i told everyone i would be updating more since i did that one day. yay lets be excited. anywho, it is 5:21 and i still havent slept and i have school tomorrow. around 4am i decided jsut to stay up because what would be the use in sleeping because then i would never want to get up so i might as well stay up all night tonight since i slept all day and then hit the hay early tonight.

today was a very interesting day indeed. as you all knwo the love of my life which very few of you know anything about has once again dicked me over. he pulled the bullshit that he does not want to hang out with more or be more than friends. see his deal is he never has a girlfriend and he told me straight out that he uses girls so i could be aware. thank god he has told me this because otherwise i probably wouldve been stupid in the case but luckily i wasnt. this hasnt been the first time he has done this, he pulled it last wednesday also. i cried to him and we made up and the next day at the semi as soon as he saw me he ran up to me and gave me a big hug and a kiss and we were back to our old selves. i didnt see him at all after semi in which we had planned but i was okay with it and he called me a few times after anyway which made me content. the next night which was friday i went to the movies with julie and angel and got kicked out which made it worse we snuck into the movie which was constantine and was actually turning out to be pretty decent. "TUPAC!!" wow funny times! later on eric and bryan slept at angels because julie couldnt sleep out since she had work in the a.m. and i showed no feelings toward eric and he asked angel why i was acting like that and why i didnt care anymore and believe me it worked. i told him i didnt really like him too much anymore although i am in love with him and would die to tell him that but i knwo that i can not. it hurts so bad loving someone and knowing for a fact that you do and not being able to say a word about it. its killer. and i dont care what any of you say i do feel some type of love for this kid. im not saying that i would go to the extent that i am madly in love with him but i do love him just like i love a lot of other people. anyway, it will hit him eventually and trust me he will care. it hurts now but i have been doing plenty of things to keep my mind off of him. after i was done talking to him i talked to a few friends which made me feel a lot better. i love my friends they are great and god knows what i would do without them. thanks guys! after that i took a nice long hot bath which took away my upset stomach a little. yes i was sick over this kid believe it or not. after that i cleaned out my sock and underware drawer. ok i know it sounds quite silly but i love being organized although i rarely ever am. i threw out everything i didnt want and found some matches and what not. it was something that needed to be done which made me like feel i was cleaning out a part of him. ok sorry guys i sound like a freak but doing little stupid things like that when you have nobody to realyl talk to or you just dont want to talk in general really does help. after that i went through all of my bathing suits because i have about a million and got rid of the ones i dont want. last week i went through all of my clothes and organized my shirts by strap, tank, short sleeve, long sleeve, hoodie. i even put them by brand hahaha. i know i am soo weird but that is just me. i got rid of a shit load of things which is 2 huge abercrombie bags and 1 smaller bag. i'll either sell it at a garage sale and make some bucks which i definately need because of driving soon, vermont, and prom(s). anyway, another thing to help me over my heartbreak was i watched legally blonde. it is such a good movie and it shows such girl power haha. wow spice girl memories. but really, if you are ever going through a heartbreak its just such an upbeat movie that shows that you can do much better and you dont need to rely on anyone for your hapiness ever. i felt prior to watching that i would never be able to eat but i was thinking a lot and i made myself a soft pretzel and i ate it all. i think im going to be fine without him. anyway, i am going to the weatherly prom and so is angel which i am completely stoked about. i need to find a dress now. wow this will be my 3rd dress this year that i have bought. my original idea was to get a real big poofy dress for prom but now i hate them and i definately dont want one. then i was thinking lime green but then i was thinking that lime green doesnt go good with blondes? i am not sure. so soon i will be searching all over for the perfect prom dress. there is a chance i might go to the hazleton prom also with a good friend of mine. i'm going to find out definately this week probably. if i go to that i was thinking about just buying angels dress off of her from last years semi. i dont know yet though. this week is going to be very very busy for me though. tomorrow i have work, wednesday i'm going shopping all day, thurs i work, friday im going on a date to get my mind off of things with the kid i went to semi with. by the way go to my pictures and tell me what you think of him and eric. be honest also please!!!!! then sat. im going skiing finally for the first time this year will julie!! yay!! i will have pics also so i'll tell you when i update them! in like 23 days im going to vermont i am soo stoked! hopefully it is gonna be an awesome time and i cant wait. =)

i guess that is it for now, i'll let you guys know what goes on tomorrow. hopefully no more heart break for kayla. i soo dont deserve this. nobody does.

well hello world. it has been quite some time since i have updated. almost about a month? i havent really felt like updating.. i was thinking in deleting my whole account all together but i like reading other peoples when i have nothing to do and it keeps me updated on some gossip. anyway, i'll probably be updating more since i updated now and hopefully everyone else that stopped will start to again too.

i ended up not going to the hazleton semi which is pretty much my own fault because i didnt keep in touch with norm too much to let him know what was going on because i was spending so much time with eric. he is completely amazing at times but at others he makes my life miserable. after we got into a fight one night he told me that he was ready for a comittment until the next day when he just didnt talk to me all together. i found out him and my cousin that i really dont talk to anymore had something going on which made me go off. then of course like a fool i forgave him and believed that things would change and it was just a mistake he had made and i had to accept that everyone messes up including myself. things were a little awkward at first between us but then they got better because spent a lot more time together. we are just like we were now in the beginning and its amazing. he is so misleading though i can never tell what he is thinking. i have no idea if he wants to be with me or if im just there to keep him occupied. im scared to ask him what he wants because i dont want to start a fight like it did last time. i really just dont know what to do but i guess i will just stick around i mean i have no other guys to attend to right now other than him so i might as well just live with it. anyway even if i wanted to forget about him i dnot think that i could. he is special. no matter what he does to me he is special. ive never met someone of the opposite sex so much like me. i sware he is perfect and i would do anything to be with him. i am completely crazy over this kid and honestly i would do anything to be with him.

anyway enough of that, the weatherly semi was extremely fun other than the fact angel almost got attacked by her boyfriends ex girlfriend tara. that was very scary although we laughed pretty hard when it was happening. it was very good time other than that and my date was so awesome and i had so mcuh fun with everybody that was there.

i am now 16 as of yesterday! i really didnt do anything special for my birthday. angel eric and ricky along with the whole family came over. i feel a lot older haha i know it is weird but i feel like there is a drastic change between 15 and 16. 15 just seems so much younger. i mean 16 you can drive, work at most places in appose to 15 most places won't hire you. i just feel a lot older being able to say im 16 other than 15. i quit fucken wendys which is awesome cuz now i work at buddies bagels with julie. it is right by my house and its an awesome atmosphere to work at. i was thinking about working for damons but i just think a bagel shop would be wayyyy cooler. although i would love to work somewhere with i could deal with my passion which is clothes. oh well some day i will.

i have photos up from the semi on my picture site which is

http://community.webshots.com/user/kbaby02_-date

make sure to go and see and tell me what ya think!

<3kayla

so a lot of people have been commenting on my thing and a lot of other peoples evidently so they can feel better about themselves which i see okay because if they want to say stuff and it doesnt hurt me or brnig me down in any way, shape or form and it benefits them in some sick demented twisted way then do be it and let them keep going with their weird fetish...

anywho i havent updated about my actual life and what has been going on it for quite some time not because i dont really have the time anymore but im just too lazy. i know im sorry. well i'm going to two semi formals one in weatherly and the 11th grade one at my school. they are going to be such a blast since angel is going to both of them too and everything is so much better regardless the situation when you have your best friend there. i bought one dress in drums at wedding belles and its gorgeous stunning and i love it so much. i just havent decided in to which semi i should wear it to? other than that im most likely borrowing lindsey shemanskys dress from mistletoe so i dont have to wear mine. i like hers a lot is it turquois and very pretty. that week is going to be very hectic since the 17th is the weatherly semi, 18th is a day off, 19th is my 16th birthday!!, and the 20th is the hazleton semi. anyway when i went looking for dresses ive decided that i LOVE lime green dresses. they are so different and bright and i love them. if i get asked to prom this year or any year i'm definately getting a lime green dress.

anyway enough on the dress subject, my new classes rock and they are so f'in gnarly. yes i said gnarly and no im not trying to be a surfer and im not posing to be one, before anyone comments me on saying the world gnarly that belongs to the western part of the world where they catch some gnarly waves. anywho... josh p is in my 1st period because i made him get it changed so he can be ina class w/ me since i havent had a class with him ever and i have a lot of people i know not that i talk to in there but im sure i'll end up talking to a lot of the people in there by the end of the year. my 2/3 is okay, i don't really talk to anyone in there except christian and josh mont and brock. i hate spanish anyway. 4th lunch is really good me and brooke go to mr turris and make popcorn and stuff and its just cool that we can watch tv or do whatever we want have a reallyyy laid back lunch unlike the hectic cafe lunches. god bless all of you in there. 5/6 is gym and i liek gym class i always have such a good time screwing around in it. i dont have any friends in there but i know a lot of guys in my classes and it will probably be fun. right now im in family consumer science and its suchh a blow off. 7th period i have history and its okay the teacher seems kinda bitchy at times although i thought she was going to be really nice before i had her. maria is in that class which i didnt know so now i atleast have someone to talk to even though i dont really sit by her.

on a different level of conversation, i havent talked to dominic in a very long time although i still think of him everyday and know that eventually we will be together again its just i dont know when or why or how but i know that it will happen. i saw him friday night but he didn't see me but i didn't want him to for some reason anyway. ive been hanging out with a bunch of weatherly kids lately and they are sooo awesome and so fun and wow oh so hilarious. i have such a fun time no matter what we do even if it is sitting in an empty parking lot or sitting in a dining room of a fast food restaurant we have an F'ing blast and i can not wait at all to go to that semi and be with all of those kids again and party hard. i met one of the most amazing kids also and i seriously think he is my soul mate. no lie. we are exactly alike in everything we do. the way we dress, act, the music we listen to, our humor, the way we are so sarcastic about everything. i swear its weird its like one of them parallel universe things and we are exactly alike except he is of the different sex. last night he got a ticket when he was taking me home for going through a red light and it was just the funniest thing. yea when driving past curfew and getting pulled over when you only have your junior license be funny? well i never thought it would be funny but he definitely made it funny. i feel really bad because he doesnt have a date to his semi so im trying to find someone to go with him but it is cutting it very close with time and all. who knwos i hope i find someon though. anyone interested? hahaha anywho, i think i'm going to get a shower and get ready and all that jazz and hopefully go to josh's show if my mom isnt bitch a loser.

bye all!

Bold the movies you have seen and at the end put one that isnt on the list

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. Memento
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings
09. The Lord of the Rings : The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean

20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies
26. BASEketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Where's My Car?

49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future
53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge

57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember 

61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead
65. The Nightmare Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands
67. Battle Royale
68. Kill Bill Vol. 2
69. Fight Club
70. Clerks
71. The Crow
72. Get Real
73. Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone
74. Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban
75. Wake
76. Silence of the Lambs
77. Pulp Fiction
78. The Crying Game
79. Amélie
80. Hedwig and the Angry Inch
81. Happy Campers
82. Velvet Goldmine
83. Elephant
84. Peter Pan!!!

85. Camp
86. Particles of Truth
87. The Godfather
88. Big Fish
89. The Passion of the Christ
90. Close Encounters of the Third Kind
91. The Neverending Story
92. The Breakfast Club
93. Newsies
94. Princess Mononoke
95. The Prince of Egypt
96. Grease
97. The Hidden Fortress
98. Troy
99. It Happened One Night
100. Hackers
101. Dead Poets Society
102. Ghost Ship
103. The Wedding Banquet
104. The Red Violin
105. The Beach
106. The Women
107. Run Lola Run
108. The Quiet Man
109. X-Men
110. X-2

111. Spiderman
112. Punch Drunk Love
113. From Dusk 'Til Dawn
114. Joe Vs. The Volcano
115. Meet Joe Black
116. Gregory's Girl
117. In the Time of the Butterflies
118. The Butterfly Effect
119. Dirty Dancing
120. Final Destination 2
121. Rosemary's Baby
122. Spider-Man 2

123. Practical Magic
124. A Shark Tale
125. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
126. Sweet Home Alabama
127. American Beauty
128. Rocky Horror Picture Show
129. American Psycho
130. American History X
131. Ray
132. Waking Life

133. I Heart Huckabees

134. Garden State 

135. What the Bleep Do We Know

136. Gone In 60 Seconds
137. 8 Mile
138. Blow

139. Napoleon Dynamite

140. Bend it like beckham

141. Charlies Angels

142. Charlies Angels: Full Throttle

143. Along came polly

144. Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood

145. The Day After Tomorrow

146. Love & Basketball

wow.. i am pethetic.

i need to get to blockbuster stat

no i am okay its just the topic i love this song im addicted to it. i would love to see my chemical romance. i eventually will. anyway, just a quick update to tell everyone that last night i rented Requiem for a dream because of maria's thing. anyway it was seriously like the most messed up movie i think i ever saw ahaha i did not get it at all. although i really wasnt paying attention to the beginning of it really good. i guess i'll need to watch it again to understand it. so other than that i noticed that my left hand and arm is always tanner than my right. its soooo weird. so i havent talked to dominic in a few days but i dont even mind. jerry called me last night after he heard i had a hot date yesterday ahah wow im soo slick. oh well i still want nothing to do with him. his sweet words dont mean a thing. so ive sorta been talking to this kid from weatherly, i dont know how to explain that situation though. ive never hung out with him yet or anything. soon though. he seems like perfection though. so as of now im saving my money to do some shopping. so far i have 166.00. i'll probably go after i get my next paycheck or something. =) which will be in 2 weeks but oh well. anywhooooo...im going to take a nice long bubble bath to make the time go by a little faster. bye world!

.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: i'm not okay - my chemical romance.*.

.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: konstantine - something corporate ANDDDD just dance - jamiroquai (song from napoleon dynamite where he dances at the end)

Ashlee Simpson - Undiscovered

Take it back, take it all back now
The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than i do
All the reasons i gave, excuses i made for you
Are broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how i wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz im so in love with what we were
Im not breathing im suffocating without you
Do u feel it to

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When im in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole
Theres a million reasons why i cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz i dont wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz i cant fake and I cant hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all i need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, im without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

sorry about the title but it just attained to this weekend and it was the first thing i thought of so i decided to put it. ill explain later haha.

anywho ive learned soo much over this weekend about everything. love, life, true friends.. everything.

so let me tell you what i think before i go into my detailed amazing weekend.

1) i dont care who it is... dont trust them, because nobody can be trusted no matter who they are.

2) if you ever get the chance to travel anywhere outside the united states, go. who cares about money just go because you only live once. f money or anything else..u wont have money forever but you will have memories.

3) stick by the ones that you think are true.. they will be there until the end

4) when you find someone who you think is the love of your life.. never let them go.

5) philly cheesesteaks are the best!

anywho, this friday night was boring. i was "grounded" so i sat home with my mom. we went to eat to applebees and i got the amazing honey bbq boneless wings. wow they are soo to die for. then we just sat around and she went out with my stepdad. i went out with the car and stopped up the mall for a little. saw dominic..mmm i kinda regret breaking up with him but on the other side im soo happy about it. like, i feel so free and its what i want for now. i have many other things going out right now that i just dont have time for him or i think a boyfriend like him anyway. neither of us drive and its just hard to see each other especially since i have work. oh welll. so i went home so i didnt get caught being out when i was supposed to be grounded and i hurried back out and got the matchbook romance cd since i have to learn every word to every song since im going to that concert now. i seriously cant wait !! so i talked to jp for a little anddd he wanted to come and see me but i said no so i just went to sleep knowing that i had to get up early cuz i was supposed to go to work 9-4 but i was gonna leave n say i was sick but then my mom just let me call off altogether which was sweet. so she got me mickey d's breakfast and then i got in the shower and got all ready thinking i was going up to drexel with my cousin josh, angel, this mike kid and this missy girl for 12. so i was all ready! angel came over after struggeling to find a ride for her only to not be able to come because there wasnt anyone to sign her in overnight which sucked bad. i wanted her to go sooo bad. oh well i still went anyway and it was quite fun. as soon as we got there we went straight to king of prussia. too bad i only had like 70 bucks on me. i had noo idea i was going there or i wouldve brought me. oh well. we werent even there long, we got there and ate in this little cute diner but i couldnt eat much cuz the ketchup burnt my tounge cuz i ate a pack of sour patch kids in like a minute on the way down there. oh well. so we were there only like 45 minutes after that and didnt even go in any of the stores i like. so we left and went to bed bath & beyond for sheets for the toga party. for those of you who dont know, a toga party is a party where you go dressed in sheets. i work a white tank and jeans and that underneath although some people didnt haha. there were sooo many amazingly hot guys at the party and let me just tell you i was the champette of beer pong. wow i did sooo good. i met this awesome kid named luda that was gorgeous along with like 10 others. =D like 2 of the kids made signs for their shirt that said "lets fuck now!!!" so im like i want a signnn!!! but i didnt want it to say that so the luda kid made me one that said .. "Kayla... FUCKED UP YOU WORLD" i guess it was meant to say your but eh it happens and i guess he meant in beer pong? im not really sure though.... guess it will always be a mystery?

anywhoooo... after a veryyy crazy night of partying i went to sleep at like 4 and woke up around 1:30 by the loudness of everyone. so we woke up got ready and went right into the city to go "sight seeing" and to get a real "philly cheesesteak" . so we walked like an hour in the freezingg weather and then took the subway and got the bestttttt cheesesteak ever. it was sooooooooooooooooooooooo good. wowwww. i cant wait to go back n get another. so we went around and then i went to a sushi bar and it was my first time going to one and wow was it interesting. there were soo many rules like wow im not even about to put them all but it was ridiculous. i dont like sushi anyway and i had a cheesesteak so it didnt matter. so we walked around and went in a bunch of shops then went back to the dorm then came home. the rest of the night i didnt do anything cuz i got home around 9:30 and i think im supposed to be grounded still. oh well. im writing too much again like always so now it is time to stop. =\

.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: undiscovered - ashlee simpson.*.

whos going to drexel for tomorrow night to stay at her cousins dormmmmm with angel....

yes youve guessed ittttttttttttttttt...... yours truely!!!!!!

well guys.... i got caught.

and ive come to this conclusion why:

either a) i didnt have on my lifestrong bracelets which i consider good luck for some reason or

b) i broke a mirror wednesday night

...is anyone else supersticious?

anywho...angels mom knew that angel wasnt going because she "had a rash". her mom thought i also had this rash and that we were going to go to the doctors. well what are the chances that my mom had a district meeting quite far away and she stopped for gas at the exact gas station that angels mom works at. mmhhmm...then it all got spilt out. the first punishment was groudned 60 days and no vermont. i knew that she would never go threw with it since she paid for vermont in full by herself. thenn...when she got home my punishment was 2 weeks no going out and i have to wait 3 extra months to get my permit. im okay with that, i guess its fair. they probably wont let me wait anyway they are so sick of driving me everywhere all the time. so work that night was decent, our manager was in a disgusting cleaning freenzy and we had to clean the whole resturant top to bottom spotless. i only worked 3 hours so it was okay. then i left and got my nails done which i needed terribly. i came home, talked on the phone then went to sleep.

school was decent although i was very upset that we didnt get an early dismissal. =(  i was soo looking forward to it also. oh well. anywho

i got the matchbook romance tickets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got 3 of them too because i didnt know but i know me n julie are definitely going. so yesss!

i want to go see newfound glory but i dont know where exactly in philly they are playing and the tickets are on sale and oh well. i guess one concert for now is good enough. so now im all pumped up listening to all the music. i got an application for buddies bagles today with julie. im going to hand it in later on tonight when my mom gets home from work. hopefully i get hired stat. i need to quit wendys. so i have no plans for tonight because im grounded which is a drag. =\.

oh yea on a better note last night i broke up with dominic for good. yayyy go me! i needed the strength to do that for quite some time...and i dont even feel like the bad guy!

anywho i guess im gonna go take a nap or something..anything at all haha.

 byeee everyonee!!
.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: anything matchbook romance!.*.

are you ready to read all of this? this is going to be like the longest entry of all time.. watch. cuz i am home from school w/angel and i am bored out of my mind. i am the only one up. so here goes what i did the past 2 days or whatever and a little more.

anywho.. yesterday we had a 2 hour delay. my parents are already gone by the time i have to go to school so i NEVER go when we have one. i told my mom my ride just never showed up and i "had every intention in going". yaaa right i knew from the moment i heard 2 hour delay i wasnt going. it did actually cross my mind to go but then i was like ehhh f it. i feel bad cuz i never call the kid that gives me a ride anymore when im not going. i seriously have to start cuz thats real mean aha and i would hate if someone did that to me. its not that bad though because he lives on the street next to me so its not like its really out of his way. me and angel had the plans for a week that this wednesday we were going to go to the gym and work out a little. start on my killer abs. yea well didnt happen. yes we went to the gym but i hardly even did anything and i feel quite guilty now. we played racketball for quite some time which was very fun and we reserved it for 2 hours next week from 6-8. i started to get good at it too after playing it for a little. i wish i was good at tennis cuz that would be such an awesome sport to play for like school or whatever. who knows maybe i'll join the tennis team anyway next year or in the spring whenevre it is.. anyone want to join? if not im sure julie will join because shes always up for anything. anywho nobody was really at the gym when we got there, a few people that i knew but nobody important. we started out on the tredmills then worked our way over to the lifting area and lifted a little. we got into playing racketball when everyone starting showing up. mind you wednesday is one of the days when a lot guys go to play basketball. i swear that wasnt the reason why we went though aha but okay it was one but not the main reason i seriously wanna start going and getting more in shape. i feel so lazy and all. o well. anywho we went to the gym from like 6:15-9. most people only go for an hour or two but oh well we felt like staying a little longer. =) my mom picked us up and angel and i wanted to stay at my grandfathers because its right by the y and i neverrr have sleepovers on school nights cuz my stepdad doesnt allow it. understandable because my grades arent good. they said if i had a's n b's i would be given anything i wanted. im stupid for not taking advantage of that. its not only that but like .. it seems that even if i did try my hardest and get c's or whatever, it like still doesnt cut it. so why try my hardest and not be up to their standards why even try at all. dont get me wrong im making myself sound like im a fucking idiot and i get all F's. the only class i ever got an F in was algebra 2 last year. im HORRIBLE in math. really. and i did try last year too. i just didnt get it. plain and simple. i never failed any other class. right now im not too sure what my grades are but i dont think that they are that bad. last semester i only got one A and that was in crafts class. it was a 93. then i got like 2 c's or a c and b. i dont remember. who cares anyway. so anyway my mom let me and angel sleep at my grandfathers. on our way here we stopped for wendys then and filled our faces. hmm...go work out then go to wendys. ya we are stupid. but it was the only good thing within reach. i seriously planned on going to school today, don't get me wrong. my mom packed my clothes, angel had clothes, everything. we made arrangments in advance so we knew that we would definitely have a ride to school. we went to sleep around 2:30, i probably ended up sleeping by 3. i usually go to sleep around 12ish or 1ish. it really all depends. but anyway, she woke up at 6:40 n since she has a perm she has to wash her hair every morning while me on the other hand i do it at night since i have straight hair. so she woke up, got her shower while i slept some more figuring that i would just get ready when she got done with her shower. she came down and it was 7:05. i was too tired. i felt like i couldnt even function. i called the kid that normally takes me to school and told his sister that he didnt have to pick me up. and we made plans to skip school. yes i know what rebels.

now see lets backflash a little here, in the beginning of the school year when i was going out with this kid that drove, we all had plans to skip school. nobody is home at my house all day so i knew that they wouldnt be able to get in touch with my mom so i didnt have anyone call me off. so i woke up like i was going to school so did angel at her house and we met up at school. we met the kid that i was going out with then left. he took us tanning and for breakfast then we all hung out and just drove around until 2ish or 3ish. i thought i had pulled it off!!! woohooo!! go me!! well, i was wrong. my stepdads father is a teacher up the highschool, so my vice principal asked him why i wasnt in school and why nobody had callen me off? i guess normally he knows that somebody always calls me off. i had work that friday night 4-7. i got a call about a half hour, 45 minutes into work from my mom. "Kayla, did you go to school today?" well of course i said yes and then when i knew that it would only get worse if i continued to lie i fessed up. i was supposed to be grounded for a veryyy long time from computer/phone/going out. well yea didnt happen. i just swore i would neverrr do it again. and i thought i never would. i wouldnt even skip a class thats how scared i was. so my mom wouldnt even lie and go along with me knowing that i was sick to my principal and i got a conference suspension.

okay so back to the story, so anyway now you all know about me getting caught skipping school. no it wasnt fun at all. so now i have been soo scared ever since at the thought of even thinking about skipping. so angel called her mom and told her mom that she had red splotches all over her and she was catching on a fever. her mom totally believed it and said that she didnt have to go. i knew that wouldnt go over well with my mom since i just didnt go yesterday and if i asked her to stay home she would neverr everrr let me sleep out or have anyone stay over on a school night. again. see chances are none of you know my mom. she is the BIGGEST drama queen that you will ever meet in your life. so now.. my next mission was to find someone to call me off of school today. my options were: my grandmother whom i wasnt sure if she would, angels aunt dawn that called her off plenty of times before, angel, my grandfather, .. and well that was pretty much it. until around 8ish we couldnt get in touch with anyone. my grandfather was sleeping, my grandmothers cell phone was turned off and nobody was answering at her house, and nobody was answering angel aunt dawns house. finally angel got in touch with her aunt dawn and she refused to call my off after angel swore that she would. ugh. then, i get a plesant call from my mother making sure that i was up. in the conversation with my mom, she goes "if i find out that you didnt go, there is gonna be BIG problems!!!!!!". that was probably the scariest line i ever heard in my life. after that i was paranoid from that point on. finally i got in touch with my grandmother and we talked for a good 20 minutes. she didnt want to call me off at first but finally i talked her into it! =). woohooo! me and angel being the genius' that we are.. figured that my mom could stop at my grandfathers most likely at any given time and left work to see if we were here since it was not even a 5 minute drive. we moved all of our stuff here into the spare bedroom in the closet so just in case she shows up and we have to hide and make a run for it. so i dont know if iw rote it in here but about a week and a half ago, 2 weeks ago my grandfather had surgery. nothing major but still. so he has been off of work ever since. thank god hes cool and he wont mention anything to my mom that we were here. a few days ago he caught us in here with guys at like 4am and he didnt mention a word to my mom. hes awesome. if it wasnt for him i couldnt even begin to imagine all the stuff i wouldve got caught doing and all the  trouble i would be in right now. so i alwaysss get home before my mom and stepdad. so i figured that i would get a ride home around 2:30 so it seemed like i really went to school. i have work at 4 so i would just go home and change regardless so it wouldnt matter. anywho...at 9:24 my phone starts ringing. now who the hell would call me at this time other than julie or angel.... or my mom? so there have been quite a few times that my mom has called me from work i dont know if shes bored or what it is but yeah so it was from a cell phone that i didnt know. i wasnt going to answer at first but then i thought well im gonna be wondering who this is forever if i dont. so i didnt really answer i just accepted the call and listened to who was on the other line. i thought i heard my mom go "well she picked up" and then she hung up. im thinking o great im caught. well she didnt call back at all, and she didnt call my grandfathers house so it looks like so far im in good shape. now the only thing im worried about is her leaving on her lunch break to come and see if im here or not. utt oh. i duno, i dont think that she will. if i get caught it will be the WORST thing ever cuz i have KILLLERRR plans for this weekend in which i can not reveal but if u want to know then ask me cuz im sure i will tell u privatley. but anywho guys, i think im off to take a little nap and await seeing if i get off with this daring stunt or not. i will def will you guys in later on if i got caught yet or not.... wish me luck!!!!
.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: i have no music on here so you'll just have to deal and wait til later til i post 1!.*.

im sitting here all pumped up listening to matchbook romance excited because i think im definitely going to that concert now! its gonna be soo fun because im getting a bunch of people to go and we're all gonna meet up there. =) by the way.. maria and sam and u guys... are youz going? other than that.. me, julie, maybe angel & ashb, n novo are prob all gona go together. its gonna be sweet. my cousin mark pais and a few of his friends will prob all meet up with all of us there too. if ur gonna go or wanna meet up def let me knowwwww! the more the better.

anywho today was good cuz i only went to crafts class which all i do the whole class is talk with novo n julie. we have such good talks its amazing. ahhh i hate this snow though cuz i couldnt go tanning today which got me very upset. =\ i havent gone tanning in forever.

wow this blog stuff is getting gay.... i really have nothing to sayyy anymore. i feel like such an idiot. i guess i'm gonna go.

.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: matchbook romance - promise.*.

just thought of the title cuz i had a shirt once with that slogan on it. i dont know what happened to it though. a lot of my clothes just seem to dissapear so thats exciting. anywho i'll be turning 16 in 39 days and counting. im already looking for a new job. i got 3 applications, one for fashion bug, one for the skate shop/sneaker king w/e it is and one for rue21. i dont think any of them are hiring but hopefully i'll get a call back. i have a lot of other places to go and look at anyway. working at the skate shop would be sweet though that would be like the best job ever. i want to work somewhere in the mall i dont even care where. anywho i got dc sneakers cuz i have quite a few like skater brand shirts and what not and they look real cute on. they were real cheap too. other then that the past few days have been real good and shaping up a bit from what they were.

anywho i got into bit of the argument with one of my very good friends for a very long time. im sure if i give it some time things will be a-okay but for now i dont know. i didnt even do anything to be honest but people are just stubborn and cant look past the fact that they are wrong.

so im sure everyone has almost forgotten about their new years resolutions by now! well guesss whos going to the gym wednesday so work on her 6pack. oh yes i am!! im so exciteddd too. its gonna be like a wednesday tradition with me n angel. so if anyone wants to me up at the y in hazleton leave a post n im sure we'll meet ya there. other than that, my resolution for dicking people over hasnt shaped up..im still how i always have been. i dont think i'll ever change my ways.......

so i have noticed that my entrys have been rather dry and boring lately. basically all i do is talk about what i did each and everyday which is normally the same old thing. most of the time i cant even put what i did on here because people go and have to run their mouths. nobody inperticular, just people in general.

well i r on the phone w/ash v. soo i r gonna go! byeeee

.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for the day: i think of you - dipset.*.

so today im glad for more than one reason...first of im glad that someone actually went out and rented cruel intentions just because i said it was a good movie, and they loved it. it is a completely amazing movie and i suggest everyone to go out and not even rent it but to buy it because its amazing. anywho, last night was fun, i finally spent time with the hubby. we went to see darkness. i left half-way through it i guess and i thought it was complicated and i dont know, i just wasnt really paying attention. afterwards angel, danielle and i all got taco bell and then dropped off danielle and me and angel watched nepoleon dynamite. wow tears, i loveee that movie. its hilarious. jerry and a nameless person came over and we all just hung out til like 5am.. we finally went to sleep and then woke up around 2 which angel said was "too early"...shes weird. i went with her to get a perm and i finally got a brush blush that ive been waiting to get forever. i kept forgetting and that sucked. we both got medium #7's at mickey d's with sweet n sour n bbq sauce with a raspberry iced tea. we always get it..its our favs. then she cleaned and vacuumed my room all that jazz while i did the downstairs which is the computer room and the den or whatever the h it is. its the easiest ever..there was like basically nothing to do. so now she is in the shower and im on here updating quick before i leave to go tanning and to get ready for tonight so see some people!! byeeee everyone!

.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: my boo - inoj.*.

ok well that actually isnt the song because i cant find the mix with dipset but if you could find the mix with dipset then that is the song for the day because thats all what we listened to lastnite

matchbook romance is coming to philly to the electric factory in concert!!! anyone wanna go? tickets go on sale jan 14th!!!! alsoooo the take action tour is going to the electric factory also n there are tons of awesome bands going there also so anyone wanna go there too?!!?!?!?

well the topic of this entry is just a quote from my favorite movie cruel intentions. for a while ive been wanting to make my blog look nice just like everyone elses and well yep i finally did it. the whole entire blog is a shrine to the greatest movie ever cruel intentions. i highly recommend it to everyone. leave me some posts on what ya think about it all..

.*.KayLa.*.

although its very early in the day, it ended up being an awesome day so far! i woke up with a 2 hr delay and angel came here at 7 so go back to sleep until we had to go to school at like 9:30 or whatever but then we ended up not even haven school which was sweet! i really wasnt planning on going anyway if we just had a delay because i wanted people to come over since nobody would be home. so then a little later i found out that school was cancelled which was a big relieve. atleast i didnt have the chance on getting caught if i didnt go this time. so angels boyfriend came over around 8ish and i slept in my bed with my pup and they slept on the floor. i 2wayed jerry and he was asleep and told me he would 2way me when he woke up. i got a 2way around mm 1ish i guess? i was passed out and it was him sayen him and a few others would be here in a few minutes. so him and 2 of his friends came here and we screwed around a little (not in the bad way haha) and watched nepoleon dynamite. i swear im now addicted to that movie i love it so much. so they left and my job called saying that i didnt have to go in which i really didnt want to at all so that was a plus. well actually i didnt mind becuase i knew it was going to be veryyy slow and today is pay day but i dont even no if our checks would be in because of this weather, i mean im sure that they would but still. so they called and said i didnt have to come in which was alright. angel and her boyfriend are still here they are leaving at 4:30 when her mom gets off of work to pick them up. anyway last night was a pretty sucky night. i went tanning for the first time in a while and got this new lotion called butter and it seriously felt and looked exactly like butter but it smelled tropical. it was really weird. i liked it though but it just felt kinda gross on my hands when i got out of the bed. afterwards i got wendys which was decent then just came home showered, came on here a bit, n talked on the phone. i watched nepoleon dynamite and fell asleep. i lost someone that i really care about but it was by my choice. it was just something that needed to be ended sooner or later and sooner is better in this case. i miss it but i will get over it eventually. im good like that. oh well. im so tempted to call but im stronger than that and i wont. so now im obsessed with the song since youve been gone because the lyrics match this situation oh so perfectly. so today i doubt i will be doing anything. if my mom will drive i might call and see if my check is in, if it is i will go and get it cashed, go pick up 3 of my cameras from god knows what that i got developed. the rest of it is going towards sneakers and jeans. so i told my mom that i want that pink ipod for my bday and shes like no? i dont know why. shes like im paying for your whole vermont trip which is 330.00. okay well before that she never mentioned anything like that it being for my birthday presant? she said that i dont need and ipod and ill just drop it and break it or lose it because she sees how i am with my cell phone. shes ridiciouls or however the h you spell it. oh well its cool i have a job. i'll just get it from my pay. so one day of school left then its the weekend, thank god. maybe we'll just have a delay or something then our last day would be so easy. god like 10 days until we start all our new classes. that means 10 days for finals and making up all my work that i missed. thats crazy. chances are i'll update later when i have nothing to do.

.*.KayLa.*.

.*.song for today: since you've been gone - kelly clarkson.*.